My own BodyShaming

And yes me too, like you surely, I was entitled to bodyshaming. It all started in kindergarten, a little girl always in good shape, cute, smiling and shy; the other 4 year old children managed to find me a fault that made me different. At 4 years old we already hurt others. Since I learned to speak, I have been zooming in slightly. This is my very first complex that has grown day by day, so young we can already lose self-confidence. However, I continued to speak in class.

In primary, always the same reflection on the part of others, the complex increases I no longer like to speak in class. CE2, now I'm afraid to speak in front of others how am I supposed to make a presentation? I did it, I did it. The complex continues but another one accompanies it, thank you to you who made the remark on my chin and my nose, thank you to you who made me ashamed of my own face. "What do you want with your double nose and double chin", as many say to myself I do not have a double chin, on the other hand I have a bump at the level of the nose when we look in profile, end of face. Since that day, I do not like when people look at me, I reject compliments thinking that they are laughing at me. Make fun of me because I have the nerve to think that I can be beautiful or cute. Now I find myself ugly and the mirror becomes my enemies.

College, my weight becomes problematic, athletic since my 4 years I spend quickly although I eat a lot. I am made comments such as: you are skinny, you are flat, you are anorexic or what? At the end of college, "look at Justine, she has a big buttock", thin waist, big buttock, it was becoming a problem for others who scrutinized my physique much more than I did. High school, "she has a beautiful body but that's all" what to answer?

Years of mockery, years of loss of self-confidence.

Then one day you remember that you are the only master of your destiny, whether it is up to you to choose to prove them right or not. Trust is not a science, it’s not a snap of your finger but it’s ambition. By knowing who you are and what you are worth. Today and for 3 years now, I am no longer afraid to speak in front of people, I am no longer afraid of being laughed at. Because I learned to love myself, and for that it is up to you to become who you want to be.

Justine.